dilemma

but, that ain't the way my mom wants me to live my life. she has designed an ideal life from me. she wants me to live an ordinary life, away from troubles!

what really traps me in dilemma is my firm believe in this nature law:
"if you disobey your parents, you will find hardships in life."

i'm ready if hardships = pain; but i'm not ready if hardships = have to live below my current life standards.