inside the head of my "menye-menye" side

Menye-menye: a term created by one of my good acquintance, a friend of mine for unfierce, unbitchy person who smiles a lot.

the label "menye-menye" once landed on me. i disagreed that i was a "menye-menye" person. i admit though that i had a "menye-menye" side. but that "menye-menye" side of me that i admitted, wasn't because i smiled a lot. i have more profound desc. of "menye-menye." though now, as the entry is published, i guess the creator of the term has also elaborate its description.

Menye-menye: deciphered by Priscillia Sidharta, as the term for insecure, weak-minded person; a person who doesn't stand on his own ground.

Here's the input of a "menye-menye"'s head that produces an output a human being who is "menye-menye."

i don't know which one to choose,
my choice has to please everybody,
so i always let people choose.
i don't think that person is using me,
everything he asks me to do doesn't trouble me that much,
so i always say yes to whatever help he's asking.
i don't listen to what i really want,
because it's the voice of my bad human nature,
so i let my mother designs my future.
i don't know what to do,
i leave no room for hurting someone,
so i always draw myself back in a conflict.
i never argue,
everybody knows everything better than me,
so i make everybody my teacher and do as they say.

and finally...

i don't know who i am,
i'm too much influenced by people around me,
but this is my starting point.